Chey’s Lounge

 I need to work on my agency, actually trying to influence the outcomes of the things I can control. One thing I want to do that’s on theme with this sentiment is to put forth a more concerted effort to actively do things that make me happy. If someone were to ask me what makes me happy, I’d probably struggle to respond on the spot. So, I’ve decided to just write down some stuff that makes me happy. Some are hobbies, some are activities, and some are just little things. Maybe seeing a list will remind me there’s many things to be happy about. So much joy to find within the tragic chaos even? Well idk if we’ll go that far, but it’s all a matter of perspective. 

There’s definitely a handful of simple things that make me feel a little a happy. I like stepping on crunchy leaves and pine cones, the sounds and feeling under my foot. I like seeing other people walking. One of the best feelings is being in the “wild” with other animals and they don’t see you as a threat. Just existing among my fellow animals. I enjoy seeing different country’s flags around or different states license plates on the road. I like the way the world smells some days. I simply enjoy lying down and feeling or listening. I like the way thick, manicured grass feels underneath me. I like feeling bubbles against my hands on the surface of a hot tub. I love a clean bathroom. I like things that make me feel satisfied and comfortable. 

There’s a few things I like to do for sure. Cooking, as you know, is a big one. Eating isn’t far behind. I enjoy going on walks, especially near water. Little cities, towns, and neighborhoods are nice to explore. I like Sudoku, reading a good book, the occasional video game, and listening to YouTube videos. I haven’t been watching much, but I love getting into a TV show. I like to watch sports, football, baseball, basketball, hockey, and really anything. I even like listening to people talk about sports. I like when the Olympics come around. I like to color, carve wood, and tinker with electronics. I used to sew things when I was a kid, but I never got too into embroidery. Another thing I liked to do as a kid was make YouTube videos. All for the love of the game, no monetization back then. And you know what? I did kinda love it. I like just doing silly things. I enjoy building and fixing things, but don’t have the opportunity too that much. I’d be lying to myself and you all if I didn’t say that I love scrolling on my phone LOL…. For better or worse. 

I’m trying to do things that make me feel more productive or at least happier. I don’t think scrolling on my phone is the most productive use of my time, but I do really love it and I love being in the know. I have informational FOMO more than experiential FOMO. I just want to know it all… for better or worse LMAOOO. Maybe if I come up with more stuff I will edit this post. Perhaps I can just leave a comment. I could just keep it to myself, but maybe it’s good to keep stuff all together in one place. Makes it easier to visualize that there is some good out there! I think I may need to find an activity that is more physical to take up as a hobby. When I finished occupational therapy for a messed up wrist a few years ago, I asked if I could box, they were like yeah. Maybe soon we will pursue that and just get that absolute shit beaten out of us. Totally wrecked. Maybe I need it. Maybe I am stronger than average though…Do you think I should? What do you like to do? Do you have any hobbies?