Okay here we go. Not today, but I think I am going to write a post about “PLURIBUS” soon. I will give sufficient warning if there are any spoilers. Someone walked in on me (in an extremely open and public place) when I wasn’t expecting it today while I was sitting down on the ground. I wonder what she thought. I feel violated! Okay, over it. Back to the show. Well, shows. I’m in the mood to watch another show to stop me from missing the world in that one! I feel like I should prob do Breaking Bad or Better Call Saul. Idk though. We’ll see. I’ve been listening to different YouTube videos about pluribus today. I’ve written a few random things that have come up and stood out to me in the videos I watched throughout the day. Sometimes things just get me mad and I don’t know what to do about it. One thing I wrote down that makes me mad to think about is, “Privacy for me, not for thee.” The idea of having a right to privacy is one that is eroding into a nice idea of the past. It feels like we don’t just need to watch what we say, but also what we think. I hate that people with enough money are excluded from this. I simply don’t get how we as a society have allowed people to amass so much private property and to do so much to maintain privacy. Sucks that we don’t get that right. We’re all so dumb, we can just fix this. Jk, we can’t because people would rather keep the status quo than risk taking action that may benefit anyone other than them. What is theater, exactly? Not just what is it, but what in our lives is theater? I’m thinking about that one interview with someone with seemingly intimate awareness of what Mossad is up to who said something along the lines of them being the directors of the world. I’m just a stupid character who doesn’t even know her lines. But I’m playing my part as they’ve intended, I’m sure. Sometimes I wish I could control what people think and feel until I think about the idea of someone else doing it to me. Now that I think about it, I think I may allow people to control what I think and feel way more than I should. I guess I should work on that. I think I’ve already said that a few times. Oh well, we’ll keep trying. So many ways to manipulate people. Stinks that it’s so hard to realize one is being manipulated in the moment. I guess that’s the point! What is love? Baby, you’re hurting me. What’s real? What’s fake? What is simulated?
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Lay down on the chaise lounge with me.
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Every once in a while, I get annoyed by people trying to get me to do their work for them. I usually do it, so I can see why one would try, but I simply am not a 100% hit rate.
My mom is in Florida, and she likes to see the rocket launches. 3 for 3 on the launches today for them! Happy for her.
I wonder what I’d draw if I was good at it and had the desire to.
I need to try harder with this little blog, maybe. I’ll start tomorrow LOL. I can 100% totally believe I never sat with my thoughts in the morning like I said I was going to do after I tried the first time and was a bit uncomfortable.
I kinda have the desire to write about “PLURIBUS,” but I don’t want to spoil anything. I don’t want to think about how season 2 is in the ether, so I need to enter back into that world by writing about it? Maybe I’ll do it soon with a warning. Maybe I’ll just write about themes with no spoilers? Maybe I’ll just text someone who said he watched it.
When you start a new show, do you prefer to walk in blind or have a little bit of background? I guess if you see any previews for something, you get a pretty good little synopsis of what’ll end up happening in the show. Idk how I feel about it. I kinda like learning organically; it’s like watching sports for me. I don’t love watching replays. Sports are truly meant to be enjoyed live.
No Beans in the title tonight, so here’s a Bean pic!!
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Hey everyone. It’s Sunday night and I haven’t really eaten too much today. I’m really silly for spending money on the food I did because I think my heart would really like KFC. It’s all the same slop anyway. It was okay. Some slop is better than other slop from the new slop factory (Wonder). I finally gave it a try to get some food at a discount. The jury is still out on whether or not it will give me the bubble guts. The fact that it’s still out isn’t a good sign though, let’s just say that. Great football games so far. Started the show Pluribus on Apple TV a few days ago. Finished the final episode of the first season today. Very interesting concept. I was happy to finish so I can look stuff up on the internet. See what the other viewers are thinking. Theories they’re conjuring. Anything that may be of significance that I may have overlooked. Thinking about how it’s better to shoot 40% from 3 than 50% from 2. Still ignoring things in real life. I’ll be back to reality tomorrow. In reference to the previous post… I decided to share the full pic… enjoy.
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Okay everyone, I’m going through a small change in my life after a few weeks of hoping it would not happen! I think it’ll be okay, well, hope. It will be eventually though no matter what. Don’t feel like saying much. Sometimes we just can’t control what happens. We can always control how we react though. Doesn’t always feel like it. Sometimes we just need a little time. And I think that’s okay.
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Very few people have the foresight required to put every necessary rule in place. So that means many rules are the result of some sort of craziness or stupidity. I felt okay yesterday, but I feel kind of off today. Need to adjust my mindset and just try to feel thankful. There are people whose lives have changed in ways they never could’ve imagined moments before it happened. I’m trying to not be in the mood to start a fight. Poke a bear. Cause some commotion. I’m currently not doing what I should be doing. This sentence can apply in many ways, but it doesn’t apply to everything. Idek what I really should be doing. I just hate the way life is influenced by outside forces. I hate the way some people are able to manipulate them. I hate that I don’t usually feel confident enough to. I hate that sometimes I just do so out of anger and people don’t take me seriously and then once the anger subsides I’m just angry and embarrassed. Maybe I’m just too insane and my brain is expending all of my energy on stupid stuff. I can’t believe there are people who start stuff from scratch and build it into something big. I can’t even buy people Christmas presents. I guess that’s what this blog is partially for, to force me to do something with no obvious reward. I will say, advertising the Melania Trump, The Hat Man post was a really fun time LOL. Idek what’s fun to me exactly. I guess I like to go for walks when it’s warm, but I don’t really love it when it’s cold. I guess I just need to dress more appropriately for the weather. Idk though, the air just be cold sometimes. At least to me.
Someone asked what was up with me today and like idk. I’m just trying my best and some days my best isn’t even good I guess? I just get mad about a lot of things and it distracts me. I’ve been trying not to. I feel like there’s just years of uncertainty ahead and it’s exhausting. I need to not think about it. I need to not listen to negativity all the time. I need to learn to not let the outside noise get to me. It feels impossible at a certain point. It’s just so crazy how there are people making minimum wage and others making soooo much and we all just live together somewhat peacefully? Is that not crazy to people? How have we tamed the anarchic nature of people using society? Somehow, obviously! I feel like that could be a huge post itself… how did we get here exactly?
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Knicks finally securing a W. Been a little while. Of course it’s when I can’t dedicate my full attention to it, but it is what it is. It’s not so easy, you know? Being a girl like me in a world like this. What does one do if it smells like a woman at work has a little something going on in her undercarriage? Maybe it’s not, idk, all I know is there’s a bit of an acidic odor among us in the office. The office is an interesting place. You see people you’d never really closely interact with in real life. What’s more flustering, though, is they see you, too. Have a love hate relationship with that idea. Have a love hate relationship with many ideas. I’ve felt like a human contradiction for as long as I can remember. I feel like I have more to say but I literally don’t know what. It’s hard to feel sad. It’s harder to see others feeling sad. Is life even hard? I guess that’s another one of those perspective questions.
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Very busy today. Not with anything really, just resting, coloring, etc. Having an okay day today I guess, I can’t really complain too much. Im trying not to. Need to invest my time and money better. Complaining isn’t a great investment and not 100% cathartic 100% of the time, so then there’s really no point. I totally get why people hate complaints, but there really is so much to complain about and so many things that can go wrong! Speaking of going wrong, I’m in a bit of a meeting type thing right now to make the best of something that has gone a way I wish it wouldn’t! Nothing is over til the fat lady sings, but it’s feeling a little close to the curtains closing.
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I saw a lady on the internet doing Chinese movements to boost her energy. It reminded me of like those videos of Chinese classrooms. Those East Asians are onto something!
It’s been years since I’ve caught a whiff of a White Castle burger, but I think I just got one before. That stuff smells like it’s gonna upset your stomach. How delicious!
Small paragraph type of night tonight. Probably gonna be a little post overall. Still don’t have much to say about Venezuela. I’ve been enjoying coloring, watching tv, and playing with Legos lately. I need to put these new Legos away. I need to get my old Legos from my parents and put them somewhere else. May need to take someone up on a storage unit offer soon. Although I didn’t do anything today, it was really the first day in the latest timeframe where I can start going to get my stuff from point A. Just lazy and still having some uncertainty with point B. A long first half of the year is ahead of me. We’re gonna get through it one month at a time. That’s what we do, one month, week, day, hour, minute, or second at a time. I’m personally a big fan of 5-minute increments. Nothing like having 2 hours left of something and writing out the time in 5-minute intervals so you can cross them out as the time elapses.
Just wanted to say, I have not been walking enough so far this year. I’m doing better today, but not great! Maybe I need to go to the Southern Hemisphere for a solid start to the new year. Not happening this year, so I guess I better make the most of what I’m working with here. That’s all we can do!!! Get through the moments while making the most of them! Need to devote more of my energy to being thankful. It’s easiest to feel thankful when I get to look at beautiful scenery and make/eat good food. Maybe I should work on making that more of my reality. Maybe I can buy a little cabin within 250 miles of me one day. Maybe I should pivot to that and skip the storage unit. That’s still a long drive for a gal that doesn’t love long drives these days. I wish life was a little more about doing what we love rather than what we have to do. Maybe we don’t need all this free time. Maybe I have all the time I need and I’m just a stupid idiot. Idk! Will chat soon.
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Hello ladies and gentlemen. You’re not going to believe it. I’m feeling tired again. I have a valid reason, though… this time. I did a pretty decent amount of cooking today. I made chicken tikka masala, rice, and naan. It takes so long to make it all, but I persevere because it’s fun and good. I am a white woman and I don’t normally wash my chicken; however, I do wash it if I’m making a non-white people-inspired dish. Idk, it just feels right in my heart to give it a little rinse and scrub with a lemon or lime in that case. Idk if it makes sense, but that’s what I’m going to do. I honestly would’ve skipped this step if what happened to me after had happened before (I micro-planned the knuckle on my finger while grating ginger). What else went wrong? Well, I didn’t burn the rice, but some definitely browned and stuck to the bottom of the pan because of the residual heat coming off the pan I was using to cook the naan. I have to be honest, I used some ghee to try to help break it up a little, and it tasted really good. It’s a completely different culture’s cuisine, but the rice has inspired me to perhaps try making tahdig (crispy Persian rice). Maybe I should clarify that I made my rice today by using butter, onion, and garlic that I browned the rice in before adding chicken stock. Good stuff. Anyway.
Things change, life happens, you gotta keep going forward and can’t look back too long because it simply does not matter. If thinking about the past could change it, I’m sure there would be a lot of heartbroken mothers who would be able to manifest their lost child or something. But there aren’t. So there isn’t. For now at least! Speaking of for now… we’re currently in the midst of the last football game of the regular NFL season. I can entirely believe my favorite team had the season they did. Big game tonight. Maybe there are no big games and it’s all rigged. Maybe it’s not even considered rigged because it’s all for entertainment. That’s life, baby.
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What if I fall asleep and don’t wake up before I’m supposed to post? Well, then I guess I would post it when I wake up! Before I went to sleep last night, I saw a post on X (a tweet) about a spike in the Pentagon pizza index. I wondered if anything was happening, but nothing else unusual was coming up on my feed and it was late, so I didn’t really remember it after going to sleep and waking up. Once I woke up, I saw the news that the U.S. is bombing Venezuela and taking Maduro. It took me a few minutes to remember the post, but once I did, I was like, oh shoot. Not sure how I feel about all of this, but it seems like this is illegal to do without congressional approval and like a violation of Venezuelan sovereignty. There is no peace in Westphalia!
I need to see what else unfolds in the next 36 hours or so before I feel like I can fully comment. I am suspicious of what’s happening and whether or not Trump and Maduro are secretly friends. That’s an unfounded thought, but I haven’t been able to shake it all day. I’m suspicious of what’s happening with Russia, China, and Iran had going on there and the extent it has influenced the current events. I am not sure what will happen politically. I’m not sure if I’ll know what’s happening is actually what happened/if it was orchestrated to happen that way, etc.
Well, I’m tired xx
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