I missed!
Chey’s Lounge
Lay down on the chaise lounge with me.
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My bad for being so bad lately! I guess I don’t have much to say lately that’s novel. Same thing different day. Our world is ruled by those sick enough to grab power. And never let go. I’m just legit upset that nothing seems to be changing in a good way. Does it always feel this bad? I feel like it wasn’t always like this for my short life. I would be spying on the masses too in their case. They should be afraid, technically. And they are. But like… not enough and it’s because they know we very likely will do absolutely nothing. Shit sucks dick brah.
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Big day once again. Feeling tired… once again… I made two different fried dishes today. Chicken fried steak and chicken parmigiana. One, I’ve never made, the other, I’ve made quite a few times. I didn’t love the chicken fried steak. Not ready to talk about it yet, but don’t worry, I took a few notes, so I won’t forget the important details. I must rest.
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Apparently Kevin Durant’s burner twitter has been exposed. Can’t trust people forever! Especially not randoms on the internet. Especially when you have nothing to lose. I’m nervous for an expansion draft eventually. What do you call a new team in Seattle? What if we brought back the Montreal Expos? I think Raleigh would probably be a good spot.
I think I’ve been sleeping poorly. I feel it in my back. My upper back gets messed up so easily. It’s so hard getting old (being a passenger in a car accident at 21). M What if we pretended that microplastics in our brain are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now…
Thinking about how there was a seemingly used pair of underwear on the sidewalk in front of work a few months ago. Never heard anyone else say anything about it. I need to know what other people thought. Does no one else care? Am I a bigger freak than I thought? Anyone else thinking about how they need to clean?
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I’m tired! Cooked a little. Look!
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I feel like my spark is a bit dim lately. I need to go for a walk outside. Just not as enjoyable in this weather and when there’s weird amounts of old snow on the ground. In the mood to be funny and make people laugh. Some people like my sense of humor. Some do not. I enjoy being a little bit crazy. It’s way more fun and interesting. I def don’t have the self-confidence to be like that all the time though. I care too much about what other people think. I don’t exactly let that get in the way of being insane at least like half the time lol. People would describe me as strange or something else. I really kind of am. I’m not just a normal gal.
Happy for that guy from Kazakhstan who won gold in men’s skating. I enjoy watching all of the events, even curling can be okay for a little. Maybe I’ll need to try it out. Especially now that I’ve become a beer drinker. I kinda like those bar-type games. Darts, pool, etc. I’m happy they’re playing the Olympics at work. I think it’s sad that the Ukrainian skeleton(?) guy was disqualified. I sorta get it, sorta don’t. It’s just hard to everything is hard. Everything is layered and nuanced. And sometimes the layers are lies??
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sorry guys
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Let’s pour one out for them today. Because I can’t stand all of the noises that surround me today. I need to relax, but it’s hard. It all feels so overwhelming. I want to do something, but what is there to do?
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These Files have had me thinking about things. Connecting dots that probably aren’t there. Maybe they are though…
Lilith. Who is she? Adam’s first wife who said screw this, I’m not lying under you, and then literally flies off. Speaks the name, grows the wings, gone with the wind. To somewhere else. What happens after this. And why? They twist her into this baby-killing succubus queen. Siphoning off men’s splooge in their sleep, birthing demon kids, cursing women in labor (sounds like Maxwell). Seductress, child-stealing, mistress of chaos.
So Adam gets made, then Eve from his rib. A submissive, second-place, perfect helpmeet. But that’s not the full story, just the much more prominent chapter of the story. You see, there’s this glitch in Genesis, two creation stories smashed together into one. Two chapters that may or may not be contradictory. One where they’re equal, made at the same time. The other where one is made from the other, forever a part of one and not a whole of her own.
So Lilith… the explanation for why the first try “failed.” She was created to be the equal, from the same dirt, same breath. But equals don’t bow, right? So she has to go. Fly away. Become the monster. Why create her at all though? I mean, in the myths. Unless it’s all real? Or maybe there’s just some truth in everything. But somewhere way back, just like with everything else… the story feels engineered. Like someone said if a woman won’t play along, we’ll portray her as the demon who hurts the most vulnerable. Keep the bitches in line. Fear the independent one. Demonize her. I get it. Sometimes I feel like the whole world is rigged for me to just shut up and submit and if I don’t, I’m the problem. The screech owl in the wilderness. The night monster nobody wants around. Not them, not the kids, and not the nice dinner parties. I get it. It’s scary and not good for the vibe. I’ve had days where I feel like I’m the one flying away, screaming inside, while everyone else pretends the garden is fine. Idk. Maybe Lilith’s just a mirror. The part of us they don’t want looking back at them. But then I crash… on the chaise lounge.
But anyway… I think there may be more to this.
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This one is more for me than most of my other posts. I had never made anything I had on Sunday, aka yesterday,prior to then, so it was really a big day. Idk if I’ll make the wings exactly the same again, but I still want to write down what I did do this time. I’m lazy so don’t expect much x.
Okay potato skins. I rubbed with olive oil and salt and cooked for about an hour at 400° and then an extra like 10-15 mins on 450°. After they cool, scoop out the middle. Use some sort of shredded cheese and fill it all the way up. Top it with some chopped bacon. Put it in the oven like that for like 20 minutes at 400°. Top with whatever you’d like, but one of the tongs you really should add is scallions.
Okay. The chili. I used like 1.25 lbs. ground beef. 85/15 if you were curious. The rest of the dish is loosely based off that proportion. I needed bacon for both this and the skins, so I cooked a few slices in the oven. I saved some of the grease to use as the fat to sauté my veggies. I used onion, a red bell pepper, a long red pepper, a poblano (charred the skin off prior), and a can of fire roasted green chilis. I used some tomato paste and after letting it all cook a little I added what was supposed to be crushed tomatoes but was actually whole tomatoes cut up by me, a can of fire roasted dice tomatoes, and some beef broth. Oh, and you can’t forget about the beans! A can of dark red and a can of black beans, lightly rinsed. I brown the meat and add some chopped bacon in there at some point. Omg the spices shootttt. Running out of time brown sugar, salt, pepper, garlic powder, onion powder, cumin, smoked paprika, ancho chili powder, some cayenne,
Okay wings, quickly. I did a dry rub after coating in olive oil I think it had salt, pepper, garlic powder, onion powder, cumin, paprika, some cayenne, some dried herbs, prob something else, and some baking powder. For the sauce, I basically used franks wing sauce, honey, and molasses. I may need to comment if I remember anything that I forgot now. But I did a decent job. Oh. I cooked the wings like 40 mins then after putting on the sauce broiled for a few mins. Okay that’s it for real now I think.
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