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  • No Spellcheck for You

    Sometimes I feel like writing these posts is pointless, but I think it’s good to just have something that I try to do everyday that I don’t have to do. I’ve always been pretty bad at remaining accountable to myself exclusively. There’s usually some sort of outside force motivating me to do something. Most people probably feel this way. Maybe that’s why we have religion. Or at least a reason why. Maybe I’m wrong though and everyone is self-motivated from a fire burning within. I just doubt it. 

    Haven’t been spending much time on the blog lately (not that I have much in the past LOL). I will get back to it a little better eventually. At least I’ve been posting consistently! You win some, you lose some, eh? Eh?? Lol. Anyways. I can’t remember if I mentioned that free tickets were acquired to ANOTHER show. This one is tomorrow. I am going to go despite uncertainty due to having taken off Monday and Wednesday this week. But oh well, Friday will be a thing too. What are they gonna do, be mad? I say this like I didn’t formally request off each of the 3 days and was approved for each without a word being said. Maybe I am accountable to my own expectations. I do not live up to them. I disappoint myself just as much as everyone else disappoints me, so I maybe it’s a me issue and I should cut everyone, including myself, some slack. I need a new job eventually. I am not fulfilled and I’d like to be! I don’t want to work hard all the time, but I do enjoy working hard sometimes. Maybe I should just become a public accountant and hope AI doesn’t decimate the field. I think I’d fare well with a busy season and then the rest of the year being chill. Maybe their busy season is two long. I think I have like 3 weeks of hard work in me every 6 months or so. Not sure if any employers are looking for that. It’s not like I enjoy slacking off, it’s that I will really push myself if needed. My baseline is still better than the average Joe. I think that’s a problem in a way. I’m not the best teacher because I get things done myself so much more easily. Can’t do everything yourself though. I may not be a good business owner because I am so bad at delegating.  

    Okay enough with that. Just out here feeling #stressed. I think I may be a little stinky from sweating. Have a little headache. Probably haven’t eaten enough. Maybe I need some more water. Have to deal with it for at least like 200 minutes. Hope I can sleep it off. Another long day ahead of me tomorrow. I should probably do something this weekend since it’s the Giants bye week. I probably will not. I miss my best bud that loves a few hours away. Haven’t gone to see her in a while. I feel like all I think about when I have plans is how much I hope it all goes well enough and I get home okay. I should try to focus on enjoying the medium moments more. I can enjoy small moments and look back and feel I enjoyed some period of time, but I worry about like getting through the day too much. I guess I can try to string the moments I do enjoy together a little more, bit by bit. Maybe I’ll find it easier to enjoy a day fully. I just need to take care of myself and my body will be okay. It’s so hard. Like right now, still have the headache. But sometimes I’m afraid to eat when doing something because I don’t want to bother my belly! Need a nap for now though. Maybe not a nap. Maybe I need a full sleep. I feel warm. Wonder if it’s all the layers and hat I’m wearing. Hopefully not falling ill. I have a history of that classic ocd where I’m kinda afraid of germs. I’m much, much better than I used to be, but not perfect. Need to do a little self-lymphatic drainage massage. 

  • Sometimes you win some, sometimes you lose some 

    Starting this at 6:01PM and there probably won’t be much here. Actually, now that it’s 7:25PM… maybe things have changed, maybe there will be much here. Currently just standing around waiting for a concert to start. The tickets were won via contest prize. I don’t love standing for long periods of time. Definitely can be a little tiring. Don’t want to lose your spot though, so you must persevere. I wish shows started earlier. I’m probably going to be so tired later, but such is life. Tickets were won for another show on Friday too. Not 100% sure about that one. Tiring week… feels like I haven’t even been to work in so long though. That’s the problem with work and doing things. I like to have some time to not do things, but there’s just not a lot of time for that. Imagine if I did have a kid? There would be literally 0 time. I need time to reset my beans! It’s whatever tho, just gotta do what you gotta do. Not much else to do. Only way out of this life is to go through it. Just wish it were easier. Almost have to respect this guy just sitting down with his legs crossed in the middle of the floor. 

    It’s cute watching people live happily. I like watching people happy to be doing whatever it is they’re doing. It’s interesting to see what clothes people choose to wear. Personally, I like to be a little lowkey, I feel nervous that if I wear something outlandish or get a new haircut that people will point it out. That’s so scary. Don’t ask why. No further questions. 

    Sometimes it’s sad when people are just existing. Just watching people who have a hard time getting around is sad. I want things to just be easier for people. I guess easy doesn’t lead to growth. Idk why we need to be growing out here. Lots of thinking about growth without any noticeable changes being made. Maybe it’s like physical growth and it’s hard to see changes day by day until you really take a second to think about it. 

    Bro. I just ran to the train. I am dead. This is not getting spell checked 

  • Landed!

    Just kidding. I haven’t landed anywhere. I’m still lost in the sauce, floating in the space, cloudy with a chance of meatballs. My wrist kinda hurts lately. I had surgery on it a few years ago, but I actually think it’s mostly what they couldn’t address during the surgery that has had lasting effects. The very tip of my right ulnar chipped off. I’m not sure if I would’ve been so confident there were fractures if it wasn’t for that one. Maybe since that was so easy to see, they just were like okay, orthopedic surgeon. If it wasn’t, I wonder if they would’ve seen that there were other fractures or if I would’ve needed to wait for an MRI to know if there was any damage. 

    Okay, so back to the bone chip. Before the surgery, the doctor said he’d probably put a pin in that spot. Once he got in there, though, it turned out to be too small, so he just sorta left it. I feel like it healed ever so slightly incorrectly, and it bothers me occasionally. I did 6 months of occupational therapy 3 times a week to get the range of motion to be basically acceptable enough. That aspect of it doesn’t really hurt; sometimes it feels tight, but it isn’t like painful. I’d truly rather eat a bowl of male inmate toenail clippings than try to figure out if there’s something that could be fixed. I think probably not, and I’ll just have a little (hopefully) pain occasionally for the rest of my days. Who knows, though? Maybe one day there will be something that fixes all that mess. 

  • Taking Off. Three… Two… One… Blast Off!

    I was thinking about getting some old-school sports franchise apparel since there’s probably some sales. I ultimately decided to resist because I have no idea how much stuff I actually have. I need to figure that out still. I’m just doing a little bit at a time here and there. I should be doing more, but it’s certainly better than doing absolutely nothing. I’m not entirely sure when I need to gather all of my belongings for real, but I am trying to prepare a little bit. I’m not really in the mood to though. I could probably handle getting a few new shirts or something, but I really don’t actually need them. I was thinking about getting non-sports franchise-related hats or a better jacket, but realistically, I probably could look through what I have and feel like I have everything I need. Maybe I should go to a discount store and look for a coat regardless. It’s kinda crazy how much money they can cost. I think the profit margins are probably insane, but maybe I’m wrong. I doubt I am. 

    So anyways! Speaking of sports (well, going back to), I’ve had something written about the Giants (football) for a few weeks. I am watching them right now and they’re just so bad. I am trying not to be sad about something in the past, but I can’t help it. What could that be that I’m upset about that belongs in this paragraph? Well, I’m only a little upset because I’m kinda crazy, but it’s that I wasn’t able to watch them a few weeks ago when they played and defeated the Philadelphia Eagles on a Thursday night. They are getting absolutely fucking walloped tonight. I can’t believe I’m using my precious time to witness this madness. Oh well. Trying to be grateful for this opportunity to watch them… anyways, here’s what I said when the head coach was fired…

    I’m upset about the head coach of my favorite football team getting fired, not because I really love him as a head coach, though. I guess sometimes you need to be good at what you’re supposed to do, not just random things at random times. I think the team’s general manager may deserve to be canned as well. 

    Sometimes you forecast things going a certain way or a number of different possibilities. 

    That’s it. That’s all I said. That last sentence… could probably go somewhere with that even though I obviously haven’t up to this point. I think where I was trying to go with that is something along the lines of you can hope for one outcome, prepare for different ones, and still be blindsided by what ends up happening. I guess it is best to be well-prepared, but make sure you don’t allow that preparation to fool you into thinking you know everything or are prepared for anything. Like I’m sorry, but it’s impossible to be well-prepared for anything situation. Like, what if the aliens come during a game, what do you do then if you are a coach? I think that’s more of a question for the officials, but you know what I mean. Maybe. 

    Life is so unpredictable. Like omg guys, the Giants just scored a touchdown. Maybe all hope isn’t lost. But actually, I lied. I have seen things in this game I have never seen before. We have no hope. This paragraph was written over the course of like an hour or so. Trying to get things done is so hard. Sometimes it’s hard to just do what you want to do because you’re so exhausted from doing what you have to do. I am not sure if I have to watch the Giants, but it feels like it in my soul. So that’s what I will spend the rest of my night (or at least the next hour and a half) doing. I hope you’re all having a good time. 

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  • It’s a Conspiracy

    What is? Idk, everything, probably. Like, what are we even doing? Who knows. Idk what I’m doing personally.

    I wonder what I don’t know. I wonder how much of it is good that I don’t know. Has anyone done sit down comedy, or is that basically just a podcast? Speaking of podcasts, isn’t it crazy how they can be the heart of a little community.? It’s kinda nice and kinda silly if you think about it long enough. Just depends on when you stop thinking. I guess that applies a lot of places in life. Where? Idk… you tell me..?

    I don’t love birds tbh

  • Austin Powers 4, Will it Ever Be Made?

    Not sure. Not sure what to say today. I made crepes again today LMAOOO. I’m so crazy for that. I just ate them as crepes, not with anything in them, if you know what I mean. That’s all I ate today. Getting kinda hungry. Maybe that’s why I don’t know what to say. I could go for some butter chicken over rice. What are you in the mood for? 

    (I’m currently watching the first Austin Powers  movie)

  • Today is the Day After (American) Thanksgiving 

    Okay I can’t lie and pretend I didn’t laugh while writing this last title of the latest triad of post titles. I’ve kinda gotten away from intentionally titling every three posts using some sort of commonality to tie only the titles together. Nice to bring it back in a way that gives me a chuckle. Anyways. I did it. I made the crepes. I wish I doubled the recipe. I only got like 5 crepes out of it. I was living and dying by the recipe and stylings of acclaimed French chef , the legend, Jacques Pépin. He makes crepe so easy (please read that with a French accent).
    I’m just gonna write about the crepes today since I didn’t make them until like 10 PM, so it’s already 11:12 PM now. Not much time to dilly dally. I tried to take some pics of the process, but I’m much more of a writer or actor than photographer/videographer/editor. I did my best for all 3-7 people who will read this though. The first pic doesn’t show the milk, but it shows all of the other ingredients I used.


    This is the recipe (and the very picture) I used.


    I started with the dry ingredients, egg, and just a little bit of milk.


    I added a touch more milk while mixing to get everything well incorporated. We don’t want any lumps in our crepe and if you add all the milk at once it gives too much room for the lumps to hide.


    After we were sufficiently lumpless, I added the rest of the milk, some water, and nearly finished her off. Here’s a secret. The butter is melting in the pan during this process. So once that’s done, you add the butter.


    And now she’s ready for the pan, which is perhaps a little too buttery for the first crepe. But the first crepe is like the first pancake, it’s not good, so it’s really perfect to set the pan up for the rest of the crepes. They don’t stick because there’s enough butter in the batter to keep it pretty loose and limber and ready for flippin’.


    See, like a little too much. Nevertheless, delicious.


    Now, we’re ready for crepe.


    We’re pouring that on one side of the pan and sorta twisting and flicking the bean wrist to get it to cover the whole thing with a thin layer of crepe. The first one looked pretty not great, shockingly.


    The second one was so much more socially acceptable.


    And honestly. It was not that hard. I shouldn’t have been too nervous about it. I think I got some lace on some. Not this one too much, but it was pretty sexy regardless.



    all about that lace, bout that lace, no fluff.
    And now.. it’s time for the Thanksgiving leftovers crepe!!


    So crispy on the edges… tastes like the lightest, flakiest, egg with butter.


    I would absolutely do this again. In fact, I may make it a tradition if I don’t die before I do it enough to qualify. A little gravy on the side… all there’s left to say is… bon appétit!

  • Today is (American) Thanksgiving. 

    I have an old phone I haven’t been able to get into in years. It broke. I think maybe I should try to plug it into my laptop. The problem is, I can’t remember which phone it was and where it is. I will likely locate it soon, though, so I’ve been thinking about it. Thinking about a lot lately. Trying not to. Definitely not trying to think deeply. It’s uncomfortable. I’ll try again soon. 

    I have some leftovers from Thanksgiving. Isn’t it crazy you never know when your last Thanksgiving will be with certain people? I think I want to try to make Thanksgiving leftovers filled crepes. If I do, I will update. As far as I remember, I don’t believe I’ve ever made a crepe. I am more than a little nervous. It will be okay if it isn’t okay, though. The stakes are low. Need to remember that more. 

  • Tomorrow is (American) Thanksgiving. Thankful for You. Yes, You. Toodaloo

    Not much to say tonight. I am trying to be positive. I am trying. Idk if I am trying my best. It’s hard to know when you’ve truly pushed yourself to your absolute limits. But is that even your best? Because it takes away from other things. What is the opportunity cost of trying too hard? will chat soon.

  • Posted At The (Fake) Deadline!

    The night is so not young, yet I haven’t started typing anything with the intention of posting tonight. I did write some little things on a piece of printer paper, though, so that’s something. Doesn’t help me too much in this final stretch to midnight, I guess! No, it does a little. At least I have some ideas. One of the ideas is something I’ve been debating on writing about for a little while. Now that the time has come, idk if the moment is right. Maybe I’m just feeling lazy. It’s just about pasta that wasn’t garlicky enough to satiate what I had desired at the time. I did a lot to try to get it there, but it just didn’t happen. I wonder if I’ll write about it now or keep waiting til later. 

    The first thing I wrote down on that beautiful 8.5” x 11” was, “Trying to get into a book, but it hasn’t been as easy as the last one I read. Maybe I just haven’t dedicated enough time to get into a flow. Speaking of dedicating time, I haven’t sat with my thoughts in the morning since the first try. I guess I should try again soon before I lose all the motivation to. I haven’t been that motivated lately. One thing I have been doing besides aimless scrolling is Sudoku. I must confess, I think the app/website I use is kinda cheating because it highlights some stuff and makes visualization so much easier. I do at least play using the hardest difficulty. Even if I were to concentrate completely and without interruption, I think it would still take at least 30 minutes to complete. Aka I couldn’t finish one before tomorrow at the time I’m typing this. 

    Okay, I’m gonna say what I wanted to say, maybe not as well or as detailed as originally intended, but we shall see where this goes in the next 20 minutes. I haven’t cooked much recently. I do miss it. I did cook pasta with broccoli last week. It’s something I had been craving for a few weeks, but since I have not been cooking much, it took a sec to come to fruition. My dad would make this for me basically every time my mom went away. He’s a good cook, even his weeknight broccoli is something I’ve been striving to replicate and have failed to compare to. Now that I’m thinking about it, I wonder if it needed more salt… Oh well, can’t know for sure now. 

    So what did I do? Well, here’s what I did! I will probably be bad and switch between different points of view, ie. first or second person, maybe third. I started with a vision. I wanted to start by whipping up a little garlic-infused olive oil. Heat up some whole cloves in oil until your heart tells you the time is right. Once your heart whispers that it’s time, take out the garlic and crush it in a mortar and pestle. Save for later. Now we need to heat up some smaller slices of garlic in that infused olive oil. I thought I used enough, but maybe not. After that’s looking good, I add steamed broccoli to the pan and give it a nice stir. Pasta is boiling during all of this, btw. Actually, it just finished and we are throwing some into the pan along with some pasta water and basically all the leftover infused olive oil. At this point, I added the cooked garlic I crushed into a paste too. All we need now is a little grated parmigiano reggiano. I may have missed something, but that’s what I did. Let me know your garlic tips and tricks, please. Thank you.