Chey’s Lounge

What to write about today? Trying to gauge how much I’m up to taking on. Definitely feeling better, but not great. Maybe I’ll just sit on the toilet for a few minutes and write something. I am so ready for bed. I need to start to think about what I’m going to do again. I was getting to it and then I sort of fell off. And now this past week I’ve accomplished basically nothing. I’m making it through, though. That’s gotta count for something, right? 

My nose is a little stuffy right now. That’s a new development. I really don’t know exactly what I have. Not the worst thing in the world, but really not ideal at all. I have that little germ issue, if you remember, so it’s extra annoying for me. I get stressed out that I’m going to get someone else sick. So annoying. I took 7 showers in a two-day time period. Not because of the germ thing. I felt significantly better after showering, but I think the hot water was mad at me by the end. Did you know I’ve never changed a diaper? No real desire to, but probably something I should’ve asked a cousin for permission to do with one of their kids just to try it out. I hate rules that make no sense. I like to follow rules, so it pisses me off when it’s just stupid. I hate the litigious society we’ve developed. We need accountability, not schemes and scams. 

Change is hard. Even when it’s good. That’s so confusing. People are so weird. I am definitely a person. I don’t feel like it a lot of the time, but it’s true. I’m in this life like everyone else. How tragic. Maybe it’s not tragic. Idk. Ugh. I need the night to end! I wish I weren’t so easily overwhelmed.