Chey’s Lounge

Another day is passing by and I haven’t accomplished much of anything! I guess the birds and the possums don’t judge themselves this harshly, so why should I? Well, for all I know, possums are constantly trying to kill themselves because they’re embarrassed to be alive, so maybe they are. What do I know? Not much! You know what show was good and ended in a good timespan and on a high note? BoJack Horseman. Any shows like that on right now? I feel like everything is so surface level right now because so much is created by people keenly aware of the fact people will be multitasking when watching. 

It’s so hard to just truck on through life. Perspective changes everything, but it’s hard to change your perspective. I wish I wasn’t bothered by certain noises. Sometimes I think about how my mom said her dad hated the sounds my dad makes while eating. I really liked my grandpa even though he died when I was like 3 or 4. I think it was because of mesothelioma that metastasized to the brain. It’s kinda interesting how some people are raised by their grandparents and others are born long after all of their grandparents passed away. I hate when I have thoughts that make me feel like I’m going to jinx myself.   I try to push it out of my mind, like not acknowledge the thought so it doesn’t exist. Thoughts don’t usually just go away if you try to do that though, so that’s not great. To avoid jinxing myself, I try not to even comprehend the thought. And if I do, I definitely try my best not verbalize it. I hate the way I feel like I speak things into existence. I hate the way that I can’t get over it once it happens! I fucking can’t stand the way people go, “ahh” after drinking something like wtf it’s really not necessary 99% of the time. Maybe I just hate the sounds of people enjoying their lives. That’s probably true. Like ever since elementary school I have hated group clapping. Like being in a gym with a bunch of people and everyone starts clapping along to music. Can’t stand that shit lol. Can’t stand being in the loop, can’t stand being out of the loop. Okay that’s enough weird complaints for today probably!