Chey’s Lounge

You need to let go. You need to hold on. You need to learn to be okay. Some people change. Some people stay the same. Sometimes we learn things that change how we feel. Sometimes how we feel changes how we learn things. Some people will never like you, and you have to accept that. You will not like some people, and you have to accept that. The winter is cold, but some things wait until spring to die. We need to learn when to fight and when to let go. Sometimes we need to focus on balance and other times on strength. I want to be better, but I don’t want to feel discontentment with myself. I’m sorry to those going through awful things, but I’m also sorry to those dealing with something small. I want to feel better. I just need to try harder. I need to stop worrying. I need to just do what I need to do and be happy. I wish I didn’t feel like the world would be better and that people would feel happier if I didn’t exist. I wish I wasn’t so self-centered to think that I’m more than a blip in most people’s lives. I have no idea what people do with their time. I don’t do much with mine. I wish I didn’t feel like I’m not enough and I don’t do enough. I wish I could feel comfortable. I wish I were better at being normal. I’m glad I’m not sure if I’m a total freak or not. I will be better at connecting with people who don’t mind me. I will try to be more positive. I will be happier being me. I will try to get healthier.