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  • Any Beans in the Chat?

    11/7/2025. I can’t believe we’re in the home stretch of the year. It’s been a year, that’s for sure. There’s been some good, some bad, some beans, you know. You also may know I’m trying to keep a glass-half-full mindset. This year has been the inspiration for that. A lot of stuff I wouldn’t choose to happen has happened. Maybe it has all been for the best. We will see one day. I wonder how I will view my life when I am older. Should I start living to make the idea I have of my future self proud? What if she hates what I’ve done with the place (our body)? Well, she probably would like me more if I thought about her more. Maybe she’ll understand I was worried about the present for a while. She may be less understanding about my worries of the past. Idk what to do about me. Need a little change. I guess I am making little changes. For one, I’ve been able to write about how I’m feeling/what I’m thinking for almost 2 months now. I think it’s starting to help me realize some stuff. One thing I need to do more is to do more. I need to do to learn. I need to learn to figure things out. I need to figure things out to know what I want. 

    I’m not really sure where I’m going with this one. I have some work I should get done, so maybe I’ll just add a little more. Earlier today, I was thinking about how I’m more of a looker than an asker. I think it affects how I feel about others asking questions. Feels like an attack or display of disapproval. Why ask if you aren’t questioning me, you know? Well, maybe you’re more well-socialized and you don’t feel that way. I hope you have a good weekend. I will try to have one myself. 

  • The Browns

    Part of this post is a few weeks in the making. I will just pick up where I left off with it because I feel sad erasing what I wrote previously. I had that issue a lot when writing papers in school, lol. Don’t ask me why because I don’t have a rational/logical explanation. Here’s where we left off… 

    I’m pretty interested in the history of sports teams. I like looking into where some have moved, reading into defunct franchises, and exploring rebranding. I think a lot of people are into this topic right now either because of or considering some popular documentaries that have been released in recent years. For example, the miniseries about the Danbury Trashers and Montreal Expos. I still need to watch the one about the Expos. 

    For me, I think my interest was sparked by a hockey YouTuber, The Hockey Guy, that exposed me to the Quebec Nordiques. The logo was just incredible. I was instantly hooked on old sports franchise logos. It’s not like my obsession with countries’ flags, but it could absolutely grow into it if I dedicated some time to it. There’s still so much I don’t know and so much to learn, all while new history is being made each day! I like to occasionally say a little prayer that some teams come back in some way. I know I need to be careful what I wish for (careful is a little dramatic here). I guess a lot of franchises can’t/maybe shouldn’t be “revived” when the actual original franchise exists somewhere. Like, how can we bring back the Seattle SuperSonics when the franchise itself moved to Oklahoma City? And let’s not talk about the Cleveland Browns and Baltimore Ravens. Jk. Let’s chat. It’s that time of year anyway. Not just that time of the year. It’s the anniversary. 

    Some people in Cleveland will forever consider Art Modell a “dastardly supervillain” who is less deserving of a place in the Canton than Johnny Manziel? I won’t get deep into it, but I will talk a little to remember the original Cleveland Browns. Modell was a franchise owner that ended up relying on his franchise to remain wealthy. It’s not like he bought the Browns, ran them into the ground, and skipped off to Baltimore. This was a drawn-out process that ended up in millions lost. The thing is, when time passes, things change. Modell owned the team for decades. Things an individual said years earlier can be easily contradicted with the passage of Father Time and all the changes he brings along. Things change. Promises are broken. The Indians got themselves a new stadium (Modell was offered a similar deal for the Browns) and stopped paying Modell. Turns out baseball teams with dozens of home games a year can be quite the moneymaker. Modell was like Icarus and flew far too close to the sun. To make a long story short, even though Modell had no intention of moving the Browns from Cleveland, I don’t blame fans of the Browns for hating his guts and seeing him as a dirty, lying conman. Economic factors tied to unmitigated hubris surrounding the Cleveland Municipal Stadium led to the relocation to Baltimore. Modell took their storied franchise and moved it away. 

    Well… it wasn’t exactly like that. Modell basically took the Browns at that time to Baltimore and essentially created an expansion team with the former Browns staff. Cleveland basically kept everything from the records to the colors. Modell’s Ravens had to start anew in Baltimore (he couldn’t buy the rights to the Colts) and in the end, he still went bust. I feel like I could’ve done better with this post, but it’s not bad. I just wanted to say that I’d be really sad if I lost my football team, even if a new iteration was on its way in a few years. 

  • It’s Bologna Cheap? Is Baloney Expensive?

    I have some theories about things. Everyone has their own theories, and everyone thinks theirs is right, right? I don’t think it’s always that way, but generally speaking, yeah, right. More than likely, someone isn’t going to subscribe to a theory they find entirely outlandish; it’s going to be something they believe is plausible. Everything can be read into, probably to a nearly infinite extent. Can you believe they gave us crazy conspiracy theorists (human beings) the Internet to spread these theories further, wider, and more rapidly than ever? 

    One thing I haven’t been able to stop thinking about the past few years is masks. The way the narrative regarding masks was portrayed to the public was both careless and done haphazardly. I remember the beginning of the pandemic when people started to buy PPE in bulk. I remember government officials claiming the virus wasn’t airborne, so it wasn’t really needed. In reality, they were just underprepared to provide PPE to healthcare workers, and they wanted to have it distributed where it is needed most rather than just sold to the highest public bidder. 

    Eventually, masks were not only encouraged but enforced. People hate being told what to do, so they thought being asked to wear masks in public places was oppressive. I don’t blame people for not trusting the government at all, but at the same time, I really feel like masks weren’t that horrendous. I understand people upset about having to wear masks at work or young kids having to in school, but I don’t think it was actually that insane. Here is where my theory comes in… I think “the government” used soft power to add onto and encourage the anti-mask sentiment. It just doesn’t make enough sense for people to be naturally outraged by it, in my opinion. I think that we are constantly under surveillance. I think facial recognition technology and using AI to track people was taking off around that time, and people wearing masks ruined everything. They couldn’t have that, so they need people showing their face freely, openly, shamelessly. 

    So, what made me think about this enough to want to talk about it today? I’m actually not sure why today was different than most other days lately, because it’s not something exclusive to today. Law enforcement wearing masks covering their faces has me a bit perturbed. Seeing members of ICE wearing masks reinforces this skepticism in me that there’s a nefarious reason an anti-mask sentiment took off on social media. They know how valuable an individual’s biometrics can be to identifying them. It just makes me wonder, you know? 

  • I’m Coloring Fall Themed Coloring Pages I Found on the Internet

    Another day where I don’t have a ton to say. I’m a little warm rn. I feel like I need a little shower. My body just be radiating heat. Anyone else have that issue? I hate being too cold despite this though. I need to go to like northern Canada in November to get my body accustomed to the cold more quickly. I guess I can be one of those cold plunge yuppies actually. I guess a lot of things. 

    I want to read another book like the one I read last week. I’m sure there’s so many good books out there, but sometimes I need a little while to mourn the ending. I am debating on whether or not I should be trying to get into Children of Ruin or find another new book. I think I am interested in another non-fiction book that almost reads like fiction. I want a captivating story told well, but I am in the mood for it to be real. What I really want is to read about discovering aliens. Anyone have any suggestions? Under the water or out of our atmosphere, I want to know what lingers out of sight. 

    Speaking of out of sight… anyone have any thoughts on quantum mechanics and how it relates to us? Does it relate to consciousness? Or even more titillating, does it rely on consciousness? I just have no clue at all. I would love to learn more. Maybe one day I’ll write a post! Speaking of planned posts, I have 2 days to finish my planned post for the 6th.

  • Throwback the the Tiny Thing

    I don’t have a lot I want to say today. I think that’s okay. I will just post something to remain accountable to myself. I’m rooting for the Cowboys tonight, how gross is that? I hope you all are doing well. I love you

  • Daylight Daylight Daylight See You Crying

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    Not only am I a sleepy person, but I’m sensitive to time changes. Maybe it’s all in my head, but my body needs like 2 weeks to adjust to a time change. If I’m traveling for a short period of time, I’m usually alright, but once some time passes, everything catches up to me. I have to admit, there’s only been one time since I’ve experienced a significant time change for more than 2 weeks. 

    Holy moly though, I can’t believe how every single year I forget just how early it gets dark. And we have nearly 2 months of it getting darker earlier. I can’t believe sooo see why seasonal depression exists and why people move close to the equator. Consistent days provide more stability… maybe. I said that definitively, but I’m not that confident. I find it difficult to write with the active voice, more specifically to avoid using the passive voice. Have I mentioned I think it’s violence against women to discourage the use of passive voice? LMAO jk but yeah. Back to being sleepy. I’ve taken 2 naps today (it’s 5:30 PM as I write this). What a waste of my Sunday! And the worst part? I could go for another nap! 

  • Itchy Thighs as We Approached the Cold Season in My Neck of the Woods

    Anyone else watching Game 7 of the World Series? By the time I post this, probably not. I guess I can do this quickly. What’s there even to say? Well, actually so much. Does any of it matter? It matters a little bit. It’s hard to see what matters, what is significant, etc. One thing I was thinking about today is names. When did we begin to name our children? Do other species do that? Does my dog have a nickname for me? How close are we to understanding some sort of dialect of whale languages? What do whales call us? Does it matter, and if so, how much and to whom? 

    I’m really chock-full of questions today. And not only that, it looks like there’s no end in sight! Do names fit the person, or does the person fit the name? Is there a difference? Can it be a little of both (yes)? Are there strong names? I think there are. Does that imply there are weak names? Are there homosexual names, too? Great questions are whirling through my cranium, as usual. I have too many silly questions. It’s hard to know when you should stop asking questions. 

    Is there ever a time when one should stop asking questions? Well, yes, I think there is. It could be for the sake of any number of people, but sometimes you need to stop asking some questions. There are other times when your brain won’t let you stop. It doesn’t happen often, at least not to me, but the brain’s ability to relentlessly pursue truth. You have to be careful, though, for things aren’t always what they seem. Especially if one has an ideal outcome in mind. Outcome bias. Can happen to anyone who isn’t careful! It’s so understandable why the brain seeks out validation and familiarity. 

    Truth can hit someone like a ton of bricks. The truth can change everything. And the truth is like toothpaste, or when the cat is out of the bag. Some things can’t be undone and nothing can be unseen. And here’s the thing… Things change once you see the worms. Once you grow your own plants outside and see what ends up trying to live in and/or feast on them, you have a hard time trusting anything. Sometimes I do everything I can to avoid seeing the worms. Other times, I can’t help myself but to seek them out. 

  • Hey, Happy Halloween, Hooligans! 

    I finished that book I was reading. Good book filled with the complex nuances that make up the lives of individuals and groups of people as a collective. I don’t think deep-sea diving is my hidden passion, but I can see the appeal to others, especially men lol. I think men like to conquer a challenge, prove to themselves the extent of their own capabilities, and to be the one to fill in missing pieces of puzzles. Of course, women have a desire for these things, but let’s be honest, it’s more a man thing. I think it’s okay that there are some stereotypes. I think it’s naive to think there’s no truth behind them. It’s also naive to allow those assumptions to dictate how one approaches reality. Since the book I was reading touched on WWII and Nazis, I’ve been thinking about the soldiers of the Third Reich. I have no idea what most of these individuals thought, and I have no idea the circumstances in their lives that led to them joining the military. Speaking of naive, I think it’s extremely naive to assume what one would do in a situation like that without giving it a tremendous amount of thought. Even then, one really doesn’t know until he or she is face-to-face with a certain kind of adversity. It’s nice to think, “Oh, I wouldn’t do that!” It’s even nicer to think, “Oh, I would do that!” We really don’t know until we know. There’s a lot of shit I’m content with not knowing. 

    This is making me think about another thing I’ve touched on in a few posts. You don’t know what you don’t know. I want to learn about stuff enough to really grasp how much I don’t understand. Nearly everything can be broken down again and again to reveal different complexities. I think once you realize you’re probably never going to get a full grasp on something coincides with when you’ve learned enough to get a decent grasp on it. I can’t believe Agent Orange was real. I can’t believe a lot. I better start believing it though, this is our reality, honeybuns! I hope you all had a wonderful Halloween. Unless you hate Halloween, then I just hope you had a good day. I hope you have a good one tomorrow too. 

  • Perhaps a Paragraph

    I feel like I’ve been spending the past few weeks sleeping and working. I wish I were a hibernating bear. It’s so crazy how we all have the same 24 hours, but some people are just born with a ton of energy, the ability to run on very little sleep, etc. I guess you just need to count your blessings and not dwell on your shortcomings. Maybe there are people who have a lot of energy, but they have to invest it into things that I hardly think about. Some things come easier to some people. I wonder if that’s almost a curse. It makes you think you don’t need to try. But you do. Remember that saying, hard work beats talent if talent doesn’t work hard? Like, if you just try, you’re really doing pretty well. Will you be the best? Probably not, but you will be better than a hell of a lot of people. And why do we need to be good at things anyway? I guess it all comes down to economic advantages. Maybe I should’ve taken a macroeconomics course in college. I guess I can now. This is all one paragraph, huh? Well, I guess we’ll just keep it this way. I am thinking of writing a post about the Cleveland Browns and Baltimore Ravens for November 6. I think it’ll be fun. 

  • A Positive Reason for a Shorter Post

    I think I’m going to keep it short and sour today. I want to spend more of the time I have today reading my little book. I want to be a better storyteller. I can try to improve by telling you guys more stories. That’s a good idea, right? I have a bunch of skills I want to acquire and/or hone. Maybe this desire is steering me away from finding a real niche. Idk. Idk anything, as we all know. It just feels like it would be beneficial to have a solid repertoire of baseline skills.

    I’m not sure how I want to say this, but I will try to articulate how I feel. It’s not just about hard vs soft skills, because I want to develop hard skills. I want to understand computers, fix simple machines, understand fundamentals of accounting… things that would be useful in life, maybe in a business. I will just pursue what feels right for now. Ugh, there’s just so much to know. Like, I want to know about textiles, manufacturing, chemical reactions, bringing AI to life. I just don’t have the background to do anything meaningful to add to it or try it out myself beyond learning. This post needs to be ironed out, but I’m considering just posting it as is. It feels like to get shit done, one needs to either be extraordinarily talented or exceptionally persistent. I think I need to focus on option 2, because option 1 doesn’t seem to fit. Like, I don’t think I’d ever be able to design a laser. Maybe a little robot though. We’ll see. Let’s get back to reading now, we’re trying to keep it positive up in here.